diarys of the fat girl.

in less your over weight 

you don't know what its like

its a struggle from day to day

i used to be outgoing loving life person who thought she was beautiful no matter who told her no

now i wont talk to people because  i know no one wants to talk to me

i miss out on a lot of fun oppurtuntys because my weight holds me back

being fat is just not fun 

and trying to lose weight is hard 

i used to think id lose all my weight in a mater of three months nope

its gonna take forever because shedding it is hard

but being fat sucks i feel like i cant wear pretty close

i know no one will ask me to homecoming because im not beautiful and skinny

i wont even want to wear a dress because 

i no im just fat

so i prolly wont even go

being fat you have to over think everything

and people love to point it out and make fun of you

because you have all this extra skin and shit 

and its gross

being fat and over weight

is not fun

and it makes me cry alot

i don't like to go out and do things usly because being fat and being in public is hard

because ifeel like everyone is making fun of me

i know my feelings dont matter and im not relly a real person because im fat

i havnt relly even had a first kiss or let alone a guy i can consider my boyfriend

my first kiss was truth or dare. <------doesn't relly count

i hate myself and my life

i want to be someone else

if only i hadn't gained weight

my life would be better its all my fault 

for being fat.
no one needs to feel bad for me i did it to my self and now i have to live with it until i lose it.

yes i have lost 20-30 pounds this summer

but im still fat

dear high school,

im scared of you

im scared to be made fun of

im scared to step foot in your doors

im scared to lose my friends to better people

im scared to not get a boyfriend

im scared not to make friends

im scared to the lonely loser

when i used to have so much friends

im scared of everything about you.

 sincerely, the fat girl